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Journaling prompt: What are your favorite summer-associated foods?
Creative prompt: Draw art of or make graphics of summer foods, or post your favorite summer recipes.

So I guess that leaves me with taking you down to “My Favorite Fruits in the Tropics” since the cyclical availability of seasonal fruits is easier to track than specific dishes.

Creative prompt: Draw art of or make graphics of summer foods, or post your favorite summer recipes.
~ GRAPHIC + RECIPE

I made a picmix with some of the fruits I was thinking of while I wrote this post. :)
I also added Pokemon found in the Alolan Pokedex because Sun/Moon reminds me of home.

Okay! Done rambling. I wish y'all a happy summer, folx!

It has been an uphill battle getting into the habit of cooking.

One way my AuDHD affects me personally is by adding to the psychological tangle that is my relationship with discipline and self-management. It has been difficult for me to develop habits without relying on other people’s structures in adulthood.

As such, I’m constantly trying to test myself as I try to figure out what internal structures I can build to help my brain carry on with task-work.

And I suppose the search for self-management tools is extra desperate as I fight through a lapse of un-medication.

But medication or not, I think part of having ADHD is understanding that you will always be evolving and always on the search for things that can externally motivate your INCU-based nervous system.

Cooking!

So, I want to develop the habit of *enjoying cooking at home.* It is good for the wallet, it is good for the environment, it is good for the health, it is a good skill to have.

Logically this is something I WANT to do.

But my dopamine receptors... Where are they...?

Maybe prettifying the area a bit can help with motivation? As much as budget permits?

Scrolling down Pinterest and Caroline Winkler-pilled, it occurred to me:

"Wait, I like painting. I can make a painting for me. And it’s not a painting that I would have to sell. It would be making a painting.. For myself??? Not for a project to fit my'brand' / 'style' / aesthetic'?? Not even for a gift??? But for me to hang in my own home???"

Wow. ~the concept~ was oddly hard to grasp. All together now:

Thanks for the ruining hobbies, Capitalism

Maybe making personal stuff like that might help me break the art block curses I so often contract.

I’m thinking something Shire-y. Or maybe Delicious in Dungeon!

Or maybe just cute fruit shapes!?

Omg the possibilities are endless!

Well, as endless as my skill level determines xD

Oh, what fun to think about.

Omg, legit there are so many cool people taking part of the sunshine revival thing! I'm gonna have to be perusing through the friending meme for weeks to come. Not only do I want to check out fic writer works, but also the communities they recommend, and their journals that look fun to read, and and and

Does anybody ever get overwhelmed about positive things???

I feel this short by Elyse Myers to my CORE.

If you don't want to or can't watch it, this is basically how it goes:

She's at New York City with her partner for the first time and they go sightseeing. They stumble upon Radio City avenue and arrive to this NBC shop with a ton of memorabilia of shows she's deeply "emotionally invested in." So she's peering through the glass doors, with a red face, teary eyes, and a big smile on her face.

Her partner is like "we should go in", and she's immediately like "Absolutely not."

"Why?" he asks sensically.

And she responds "You know when you love something so much it makes you sick to your stomach and you want to throw up so you completely avoid it?"

And he's like "...no."

And that's when she realizes it is in fact, not normal, to avoid things you love because you don't know how to process the emotions. And she proceeds to show a photo of herself at the store, looking immensely overwhelmed with emotion.